"And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind" (Rom. 12:2)
I spent a lot of time in the early years of my life feeling "less than,"
and ugly or fat, incompetent, or just plain unworthy of anything good
or better than how my life was at the time. There were many attitudes
and feelings that I had about God, myself, and other people that simply
were not true. It was only through a revelation of God's love and grace,
at incremental and pivotal crossroads in my life that my opinions and
feelings began to change. And boy did they ever!
One of the most monumental crossroads happened when I was 17. I call
this my "true" salvation experience. This experience with God felt like
a warmth that filled my heart, and something; be it faith, love, peace,
or whatever mixture of all three changed my perspective just a bit
about who God was and what He thought of me. I realized He did really
care about me. I realized He was a very personal God - not angry or
condescending - but full of love and patience and grace. I realized He
cares about everyone this way!
The experience changed my heart, and made me a different person. It not
only changed the way I thought, but through this re-programming, my
heart was molded into a different shape. I felt more whole than I had
ever felt before.
My dad says that God uses circumstances in our lives to not only to bring about a habit change, but a nature
change. God just doesn't want our minds to think different things - he
wants the roots of those habits to be uprooted as well. Then God is able
to fill the uprooted void with His love. And then our habits do begin
to change, beginning from the inside out.
What has God re-programmed in you? Have you asked Him to re-program areas of your mind and heart where you may feel inadequate?
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